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| My boyfriend surprised me again. He gave me my Christmas presents early. :)
And when I thought all I was getting was the stuff I wanted from Victorias Secret he gave me a white gold and diamond bracelet! He's the greatest! <3
Leaving for Mississippi tomorrow.
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| So Amber called me today and we somehow got on the topic of how we first became friends back in Ms. Block's 6th grade science class. Then I started to think of how different my life would be today if her and I had never became friends. First of all, I'd have one less super close friend, lots of adventures, laughs, inside jokes, fun times, would not exist. Friends I've met through her I most likely would have never got the chance to know. And the most major thing of all...I never would have met the love of my life. Since after all, it was her that first gave me his screen name.
I am quite the thinker. I'm always thinking and looking back on my life. I'm happy and very proud of myself that I've lived my life with no regrets. I'm also glad that I've kept a journal since 7th grade. Lately I've been doing a lot of flipping through my old journals reading my old not-quite-as-neat hand writing about lame boys I used to "love". There is too much writing about loser boys I thought were so cute that I barely even knew. And of course, I will never forget that I named my dog Cody after some stupid druggy that every girl in the 7th grade thought was the hottest new kid ever.
Then there's what me and Amber call the "Dave era". Icky Dave he's now known as to us. That was a crazy time in my life. Here I was at the homecoming dance with my friend Brook our sophomore year. I had never danced with a guy before so she was determined to find me someone to dance with. She said she was gonna find me a freshmen and she ended up picking Dave because she saw him staring at me. So unfortunately, I shared my first ever slow dance with someone totally ugly with cheese teeth and a huge nose. After that he developed this crush on me but when he asked me out I turned him down. So he asked Amber out the next day and she said yes although she didn't really like him. Since he was a loser, we had fun making fun of him and prank calling him. The most fun we probably ever had was when we wrote all the funny comments on the pictures in the yoga book we gave him for Christmas.
Then in summer of 2005 I had a small crush on my friend Josh. I was going to tell Amber but she ended up telling me first that she liked him. So I never had the guts to tell her. The only person I ever told was my neighbor Leanne. So my crush on him didn't last long because it never had the chance to grow into anything more. But I always thought he was such a nice guy--and different from a lot of other guys. I knew back then that he was the kind of person I would want to be with. Since I had never had a boyfriend at this point, and was super shy around guys I liked, I looked for someone that didn't make me feel nervous but rather someone I could be comfortable around and be myself. And Josh definitely fulfilled those requirements. So that drew me to him even more. But I moved on in the next school year.
Which brings us to 11th grade...Spanish 3 class where I met the boy I had fallen the hardest for at that point in my life. And it all happened so weirdly. We had gotten paired up for a partner assignment and I thought he was so weird. Next thing I knew I had developed some huge crush on him. Then I went on my first ever real date with him. He told me he wanted to date me. We were going to go to prom together. But then he got a girlfriend. And it wasn't me. I was devastated. I even talked to Josh about how much I liked this guy and it turned out he knew who he was. I told Josh about how much Dart (what Amber & I nicknamed him) hurt me and how now I had no prom date. He told me that he couldn't believe someone would turn me down. Typical Josh always being so nice to me. But it ended up working out--my friend Marcques asked me to my own prom! And we had a lot of fun.
It took me about 6+ months to fully get over Dart. During these months where I was so heartbroken I ended up losing 20 pounds and dropped down to 4 sizes smaller jeans. I was depressed, I never had an apetite and I started becoming obsessed with exercising. I never thought I would like someone as much as him. But...I ended up liking someone more.
It all started at Jacob's birthday party towards the end of the summer. (2006) It's still completely fresh in my mind. I was sitting in the chair and Josh was across the room sitting on the couch. He had Jacob's yearbook so I told him to let me see it when he was done with it and he told me no. So I got up and went and sat by him on the couch to make sure he gave it to me when he was done and he did. Then I remember me and Jacob ran over to Cam's house because Jacob had promised to make me a CD. After that I had to go home for some reason but I told them I'd try to come back over later since I was having fun and I didn't want to leave early. But I couldn't go back over.
Then that night Josh IMed me and I remember clearly what he said. He said "my friend told me she would come back to the party. She never came. =( " Then for some reason after that day Josh was IMing me every single day! And he would always compliment me and tell me he <3'd me. I was starting to figure that maybe he liked me. Then one day he finally admitted "I have a tiny crush on you. No wait. I lied. A huge crush on you".
This was like one of the craziest times in my life. My dad had just left. Dart wanted nothing to do with me. I was extremely lonely. So I was talking to this guy named Matt on myspace and the phone and he liked me. I was seriously considering dating him. Then Josh liked me. Jacob liked me. And my friend Juan liked me. This was the only time in my life where I was getting all this attention from guys. It was overwhelming!
So I had to narrow it down. Juan and I were always good friends and I knew that's all I'd ever want to be with him. Matt blew me off for our date and got a girlfriend so I didn't really care about him. Jacob was cool but not my type. Just another friend. Which left Josh. I was really confused. I knew there was a possibility that the old feelings I had for him could return. But I didn't know how my friends would take it. Once everyone knew he liked me, chaos broke out. Amber said I shouldn't date him because it would be weird. But I still wasn't 100% sure I wanted him as my first boyfriend. To me, this was like a huge decision! And I could not make up my mind. Part of me wanted to but the other part of me wasn't sure I was ready for this.
But then I got the phone call that ended all of my doubts. He called me. The first time he ever called me. Instead of me calling him to prank him like I had done a couples times before. lol. We had the greatest 3 hour conversation ever and I thought that he had the sexiest voice. When I woke up the next morning, I couldn't stop thinking about him. I liked him...again. Now there was just the question of is he really going to ask me out? Or is this just going to turn into another disappointment like all the other guys?
Well...it did work out. On September 14th 2006 before first hour economics he handed me my first ever love note. I read it in class and at the end of it he wrote "will you go out with me?" He thought that his note was corny and lame but I thought it was so sweet. So when I saw him next during nutrition break I told him yes.
And still today we are so happy. I love him so much. He is the greatest person ever. He makes me so happy. And we have so much fun together. Deciding to date him has been one of the best decisions I've made. <3
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| XAmadeusxMozartX: i love you...
XAmadeusxMozartX: Kelsey
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